왜 이래?

It's funny how can you are the one who was angry.
How much i think, that should be me 😌
*because of something that happened before*

At a first, i think that, "aaaahh, cause you're the youngest, i can be your friend, can-not so called formally-talk to you, comfortably have a conversation with you"

How stupid am i!
I even have a thought that i can have a joke around you.
Gomen.

You are the one who always trying to reach my hands first.
Then, hold my hands a little bit longer compare to the others.
With a curved line on your face.
Smile.
Almost all the time, with a little bit sweet conversation.

However, that morning!
그냥~ 왜 이래???
오빠 😭
내 마음이 아팠다, 조금 😢

Aaahh, why i should meet you that morning in the parking park, kezeeell 😒

- While writing this. Just why? So sudden, my mom asks about you!!! -

Back to the line.
He didn't try to reach my hands like he did as always.
But he did to the others who came together with me.

Baper!

I had to be angry that time, but i was sad instead 😭
Something hurt inside.

Aahh, whatsoever~~

But still, He is a man with the manner, the polite one.
Opening the door, hold the door, doing everything what the manner man does.

I never thought that all my questions, all my texts, with kind of "friendly" feels make him feel disturbed.

Trying to be positive.
Maybe he is toooooo busy with all his works, so, i am kind of an annoying girl in his eyes,
who knows nothing.
And something that i know for sure is ask him whatever and whenever it is.
And He found it really annoys him.

Gomen.
🙏😢

For my mental health, i keep the positive vibe, and stay a way from the negativity.
I am positively thinking that he really had so much work to be done.

Lunch time.
Aaaand, this is funny, haha
He was really in a hunger.
Seeing he ate makes me really full.
Therefore, i just think that all of his bad mood is caused by his hunger, haha
Peace ✌

It gradually dissappears, that gloomy vibes in his face.
Such a relief.
And it becomes "smoother" when we say good bye.
아아아아아아악 진짜 진짜 what a relieeeff!!!

The next day.
raining so hard.

I come to the campus, then park my motorcycle in a different area that i used to be.
There is something that running in my mind, suddenly, hahahaha. 😂🙈

I am ashamed to admit this 🙈🙈🙈
If he were really the one, i'll met him on my way to my room,
-cause i used a different pathway which have a high chance to meet him, wkkkkkkkk-

Hahaha, and i didn't meet him 😁
Aaahh, embarrassing 🙈

Buuuuutt, you know what?
In no time, He come to my room, knock my door.
Is it still counted? Hahahaha.

And he came with a smile, talk to me, and we have a little conversation for a while.
I don't know why i was just soooo happy that time.
Really thanks god it's Friday 🙏

And what will happen next, i"ll never know.

I just believe and trust in Allah.

Fighting.

Bismillah, lancar, barokah for everything.

Aamiiin ❤