One year ago note

I accidentally found this note on my memo's tab this early morning.
And once again, it's just a pure coincidence, the date was exactly the same, 17th Oct!

And here it is my-one year ago-original note.

---------------------------

This morning, 17th October 2014

On my way home after take my brother school.
Saw my village in a distance.
Foggy, gloomy, looked like in a Mulan movie's setting, my friend said in that way to describe it.
I don't know why, I just hate, not really, dislike, aaah, I don't know what to call.

But it just happened almost of my day that I little bit dislike-maybe this one suited well-where my home lied.
I just felt uncomfortable with almost all, the people indeed!
I just felt secure and comfortable in my own house and yard even when i just moved in a inch i felt insecure and uncomfortable.

I always felt that they looked at me as a stranger (despite the fact that i've been living here almost 16 years).
And i always felt that they are always talking back, about me and about my family, they are too noisy (yaa, i am an A blood type person that always feel insecure and have a negative thinking)

That's way, i prefer to going out, in my college as example or just sightseeing with my friends than stay at home, i mean, socialize with the others, so i won't be antisocial, hahaha *aaahh, hard to describe

By the way, i always have a dream that i will live in another area, village, or somewhere (abroad maybe where my crush now stay, haha)
But, it seems hard for me and my mom, my mom always told me to don't go too far and I often felt that I can't handle almost everything without her. TT
But, I dreamed to go to the other area more frequently, who knows that my prince already wait for me there, ahahahahaha :D

오빠~ 그냥 날 기대애야 애~ 😉😉😉

----------------------------

Sucikan hati, selamat berbuat baik!  ^^